What a day what a day

You know I've found it more and more intriguing to live my life for God recently. I know that it seems like a general and pretty stupid thing to say, but seriously why have so many lost their "fire" for God?

I'd like to consider myself a deep thinker. I sit and think and often study to figure out my beliefs, but when it comes to writting anything worth time to read I come up short. I wont try to today either. I just wanted to simply write that life has been challenging, pushing, striving, and ultimately loving on me.

I went through a pretty big deal last week and it's going to have effects on my future in quite big ways. Something that I thought would always be there, has suddenly changed. Not so much that it changed but it apparently was never there, it just was not there. Like anyone who has ever dealt with troubles, I went head on. I made mistakes, I said the wrong words, and I found out what it's like to be completely and utterly wrong.

Now i'm starting to change. I don't feel weighed down by what was, and I don't see the future clearly but I know that it is good. God made all things good for those that follow him right? I've found Joy recently, and when I say found I really mean created. I have realized that situations suck, but joy can be found through creating it. Making sure that every moment you are alive is one full of purpose and reason, and finding the hope and happiness that comes through that.

That is where I am, and that is my life.